smangad !
menyemangati diri sendiri …. ^^
Smangaaaddd …. !!!
if i can do this, things will be easy …
amiiin…. ^^
i had one conversation recently…
kirain dia ga ikut….tapi ternyata dia ngikut…. memang belahan jiwaku yang satu itu ….
makasih yaaa…. it meant a lot … ^^
Add comment October 27, 2009
ngayal….
ngayal dikit g papa kan?
menuangkan apa yang ada di dalem otak biar ga mendeg…
klo lagi ngrasa ga enak, marah, kesel …
whats in your mind that u wish u can do ?
1. i would like to run or take a walk for hours walopun itu diatas jam 1 malem
>>tapi itu gak mungkin…takut lah klo kluar sendirian…
2. i would go visiting a far far away country having a safari for months
>>tapi itu juga ga bisa…soalnya tabungan nya belum mencukupi and i cudnt run away from my works in that way
3. i would like to scream as loud as i can
>>i dont think i cud do that either, i know no place to do that.
if i am doing things like that at home or any places I am now, that will attract people’s reaction…
and d’oh… i wud feel even worse…
4. i would like to throw things away n be a destroyer…
>>hahaha…. i dont want to throw any good stuff of mine…i wud think twice to do that…
5. i would yell and shout in that guy’s face or give him a punch
>>no way…i wont do that…coz the thing that i do when i’m mad is keep silent.
in fact i never do such thing for real. i wuld rather stay and collect all the positive stories archieved in my mind…
Add comment October 15, 2009
howyu duin?
i am doing great …
ada beberapa post yang belum sempat di publish…will publish it later … ^^
Add comment October 15, 2009
face it gracefully
kalo ditannya …
lu ngapain aja liburan ini?
aku bakal jawab : merenung…
ya…banyak banget renungan yang aku dapetin…
insyaAllah bermanfaat dan dirahmati Allah…
its just wonderfull…
ya right, time to mend this heart is not over yet, but i found a pattern that lies behind all those.
dan bagi aku ini adalah a great gift from God.
and its time to start. time to let go.
aku hanya berdoa kepada Sang Pemilik Hati, Pemilik Segala Rasa, Yang Maha Megetahui yang tampak maupun yang tidak tampak, bahwa jika rasa yang ada dalam hati ini hanyalah sementara dan berasal dari nafsu atau godaan syetan maka hilangkanlah rasa itu dengan caraMu yang indah….
insyaAllah semua nya akan menjadi lebih baik.
amin.
Add comment October 15, 2009
have you ever …. (1)
pernah kan berantem sama orang lain bisa itu temen atau orang terdekatmu … ?
pas brantem kluarlah kata-kata yang mungkin tidak ingin kita denger ataupun kata yang tidak kita harapkan keluar dari orang itu…
rasanya sedih ketika ada seorang teman atau siapapun berkata itu pada kita…
sdikit demi sdikit mencoba pulih and gain some strength from anything that made a wake up call for us ….
eh pas nonton dorama… ada sesuatu yang aku pikir ummm…culd help… ^^
its said that
” when someone said something that hurts you…
there are reasons behind it…
whatever they said just believe it that the feeling of the time you passed together never lied… “
so i just thought yang buruk bagi kita itu belum tentu selalu buruk
kadang ‘kata’ memang bisa setajam pedang…harus pandai menggunakannya jangan sampai melukai seseorang…
tapi kalo sampai kita terluka olehnya maka tak perlu juga kita merasa paling kecil sedunia
kalo perlu jungkir balik sampe nemuin titik positif yang bisa kita petik…
mungkin dengan itu kita bisa kembali menata smangat yang sudah hampir terkikis habis itu…
smangad…^^
Add comment September 1, 2009
status update
its hard to give up when i think i can do better
but there’s time when we have to let things go
not to feel like I’ve been defeated but make it as a chapter in life to learn
i believe life teaches us lessons
there’s a lesson to learn in each day we passed
ups and downs, laughter and tears, joy and sadness
all made a perfect scene in life
everything is going to be alright….
try to learn to let things go…
learn to forgive myself seems to be the thing that I’m trying now.
I know that I’m better than this…than being stuck at this stage…
just a little understanding and words of explanation will clear everything.
^^
Add comment September 1, 2009
Alhamdulillah…
Alhamdulillah sidang kemaren sudah terlewati…
*jingkrak jingkrak…CIHUYYY…..
sudah melewati masa-masa introgasi tentang tugas akhir yang dibuat tak hentinya beberapa bulan terakhir ini…
bertubi-tubi pertanyaan yang bisa dijawab maupun yang membuatku bengong….
he3x ga kobe dah tuh muka di depan…
jujur agak ngejar dedline tanpa ngejar kesempurnaan aplikasi maupun dokumen karena hasrat tuk berkumpul dengan keluarga lebih besar daripada mengejar nilai yang bisa membuat ipk ku naik…
sudah tak terbendung lagi…
mudah2an bisa melanjutkan topik TA ini dalam pekerjaan-pekerjaan setelah ini…
terima kasih smua nya …^^
hope i cud say :’mom…I’m home..’ asap.
>> move to the next ‘to do list’
SMANGAD !
Add comment September 1, 2009
akankah sama jadi nya bila bukan kamu ?
akankah sama jadi nya bila bukan kamu ?
Add comment June 8, 2009
I don’t think i’m good at it…
i think there are some things that i realized it very well as my uncapable things-to-do. i believe its just a matter of time…
*trying to motivate myself ^^
the top 5 as far as i can remember are :
1. I can’t sew
oh God! Its a total disaster for me and i feel painfull inside when i want the different style with what i wear and i can’t even sew. well, worst than that..i can’t even sketch it.
so…its kindda bit sad for me. I can only chattered try to transform my imagination into words and some body language.
2. I can’t be in not-a-queue things
seriusan… c g bisa dgn slogan “siapa cepat dia dapet”. Klo mu ngedapetin sesuatu yang harus berjejelan(bhs apa tuh?) tanpa antri. c nyerah. c pasti slalu mempersilakan orang2 yang dari parasnya keliatan sangat membutuhkannya…yahhh…everyone needs it ktika mreka memutuskan tuk mlakukannya…but i just can’t.
i’m not good at it.
3. I can’t cook when there’s something missed
c g bisa masak klo ada bumbu atau yang diperlukan kurang. Entah karena lupa beli pas di supermarket ato di pasar atau habis atau karna alasan yang lain2nya. i just can’t.
4. I can’t wrapped a gift
ok. i admit klo c g bisa bungkus kado. Hmmm…its tough!
pernah skali bungkus dengan hasil yang…”i don’t know what to say…” but i appreciate myself for trying. I’d like to call it an abstract of self-imagination.
5. I can’t let my room empty
i don’t like the emptiness. I like where there are lots of stuffs around. and to keep it messy. It kept me somehow filled. honestly, it can distract my mind from realizing that i was alone in that room.
i guessed its just about time.
I learn to fix it or i can just let it be a part of me and keep it unchanged.
5 comments May 27, 2009
when things goes down
there are time when u feel that things were just wrong or when things goes down or when I’m out of inspiration.i do things that made me to get inspired.again.gaining spirit.again.
its because of this people i realized things.and i love them so much.
1.my family
the first place to go when i got trouble is home.Its because i know, my family will support me no matter what. whether its a hard day from work, a quarrel with boyfriend or when i got a bad marks.Home will always be the place to clear my mind. because when i see and be around my family. i feel peace and love. it helps me to redeem myself. its a place surrounded by the most important people in the world who can accept you no matter what.
love u mom, dad,dil, nya, jay,n the sweetest hana. miss u.
2.my friends
the nicest thing to do is to be with my friends. Share things with them about evrything.*well almost all things.
its just a place where i found no judging-with-what-i-did things but a place where i can have fun and release all the stressed in my head.
to my childhood friends,school’s friend,x-roomies,college friends…and to every close friends of mine.wherever they are.
thank you for being around and i love you guys so much.
3.my dearest people
its just lovely to have people that you know you love them and they love you too.the one who believe in u.the one who have faith in you.who always try to be there for u, supporting you unconditionally.
i love you.
Add comment May 27, 2009
